Tuesday, March 25
pieces by pieces
Finally back on track. Picking little bit by bits slowly. It’s been a while since I first lost my internet touch. Even lost touch with some of the people I met on the internet and was rather close to them once. Now that I’m back to being the me again, I’m starting the whole new life story. Though I just turned 18 [urm like 2 days ago heee] I feel it’s the near 30 ha-ha. 18 is just a figure, I still have the young spirit in me somewhere tee-hee
Ever since I finished high school, things were just never the same. A lil lost that’s for sure. People tell me its normal so I guess it is. I realized that I haven’t spend my time in the happiest way. Meaning.. All this time I was cooked up in school and the whole SPM thing mainly focusing in the school life society.. Not blending and going out much… the teenage thing. Bet everyone been there done that… just never got out of that box until one day.. BAM! Everything changes and you realized you’re in the actual world where people don’t treat you like when you were in high school, they don’t manja-manjakan you, you have to be independent most of the time and learn how to survive. I admit I faced a lot of peer pressure through out the waiting for SPM results to come out.
Then the job.. I got a job. At this cool [only by first impression] place which is like 20 to 30 minutes away from where I live. At first yea I thought.. All right I got the job. was happy and thought I could make around RM1000+ at a place like this... And did I thought wrong. To keep the story short… work for 12 hours everyday, no off days for the first month [due to Chinese new year and what not la], met not the nicest people on earth and only live to sleep.. Oh did I mention? The pay suck! Not complaining but it’s just facts. Spend 3 months feeling miserable and not feeling good about myself [in fact, I felt suicidal at that time] and being around people with such low mentality and thinking that I might turn into something like them, scares me. But thank god I quit the job and got myself back together. The great thing about the job is that I met quite a lot of people.. I mean, people I never knew exist. Ha-ha. At the same time I met really cool people. To thing back again, it’s just an experience. Not my career. Why bother feeling bad about it and regret over it right?
Anyways.. I’m now not doing anything… and pretty much broke. Ha-ha. I got my pay after I resigned but finished it all in less than a week I should say. Talking about spending wisely.. Guess I was really tensed up that I never went shopping for a real long time which drives me to this feeling of spending & spending & spending and not thinking what would happen if I finished all my money. Which I did. I don’t even know what I bought and spend it all on. Guess I should plan the next time I decide to spend my money on something. I got to stick to my budgets I supposed
Basically I’m happy, I start to write and talk to my online friends again. I even start myspacing again… though I lost a lot of friends in my friends list but that don’t matter. I don’t even know half the people on my list anyway. & recently I even met some of them. Which was cool. I travel by myself a lot now. Though my mom doesn’t like the idea of me traveling alone. But I do. She doesn’t see it unless I say “Ma, send me to the bus stop” I think I’m becoming more independent now. I don’t rely much on my parents now than I used to. I will be more independent and survive when I get into college. I cant wait to get into college. I’ll be meeting new people that’s for sure. I love meeting new people. So I could show them I could smile and talk too heee. I’m still surveying for colleges though. Asking around and getting opinions. I want to do mass communication please get a degree on that and get the best job offers. This time I have my future well planned. About getting into relationships when in college [so they been asking me]? I think I would not have to worry much on that. I would mainly focus on my studies rather than go on a mission to find a lover. I have better things to do. My parents didn’t pay for my college so I could go find a soul-mate, if that was so, i rather be a match-maker
So yeah got recent photos up on myspace.. oh and yea I also have on myspace. Comment if you must. add me if ou haven't yet :)
lihat myspaceku
here are some of my would say random things i shot way back before i even sat in my PMR exams :]]
oh i love cats!! though i'm allergic to them sometimes but there is no harm of loving them and having them as pets.. ok i gotta admit that i do have "too" many cats
Ever since I finished high school, things were just never the same. A lil lost that’s for sure. People tell me its normal so I guess it is. I realized that I haven’t spend my time in the happiest way. Meaning.. All this time I was cooked up in school and the whole SPM thing mainly focusing in the school life society.. Not blending and going out much… the teenage thing. Bet everyone been there done that… just never got out of that box until one day.. BAM! Everything changes and you realized you’re in the actual world where people don’t treat you like when you were in high school, they don’t manja-manjakan you, you have to be independent most of the time and learn how to survive. I admit I faced a lot of peer pressure through out the waiting for SPM results to come out.
Then the job.. I got a job. At this cool [only by first impression] place which is like 20 to 30 minutes away from where I live. At first yea I thought.. All right I got the job. was happy and thought I could make around RM1000+ at a place like this... And did I thought wrong. To keep the story short… work for 12 hours everyday, no off days for the first month [due to Chinese new year and what not la], met not the nicest people on earth and only live to sleep.. Oh did I mention? The pay suck! Not complaining but it’s just facts. Spend 3 months feeling miserable and not feeling good about myself [in fact, I felt suicidal at that time] and being around people with such low mentality and thinking that I might turn into something like them, scares me. But thank god I quit the job and got myself back together. The great thing about the job is that I met quite a lot of people.. I mean, people I never knew exist. Ha-ha. At the same time I met really cool people. To thing back again, it’s just an experience. Not my career. Why bother feeling bad about it and regret over it right?
Anyways.. I’m now not doing anything… and pretty much broke. Ha-ha. I got my pay after I resigned but finished it all in less than a week I should say. Talking about spending wisely.. Guess I was really tensed up that I never went shopping for a real long time which drives me to this feeling of spending & spending & spending and not thinking what would happen if I finished all my money. Which I did. I don’t even know what I bought and spend it all on. Guess I should plan the next time I decide to spend my money on something. I got to stick to my budgets I supposed
Basically I’m happy, I start to write and talk to my online friends again. I even start myspacing again… though I lost a lot of friends in my friends list but that don’t matter. I don’t even know half the people on my list anyway. & recently I even met some of them. Which was cool. I travel by myself a lot now. Though my mom doesn’t like the idea of me traveling alone. But I do. She doesn’t see it unless I say “Ma, send me to the bus stop” I think I’m becoming more independent now. I don’t rely much on my parents now than I used to. I will be more independent and survive when I get into college. I cant wait to get into college. I’ll be meeting new people that’s for sure. I love meeting new people. So I could show them I could smile and talk too heee. I’m still surveying for colleges though. Asking around and getting opinions. I want to do mass communication please get a degree on that and get the best job offers. This time I have my future well planned. About getting into relationships when in college [so they been asking me]? I think I would not have to worry much on that. I would mainly focus on my studies rather than go on a mission to find a lover. I have better things to do. My parents didn’t pay for my college so I could go find a soul-mate, if that was so, i rather be a match-maker
So yeah got recent photos up on myspace.. oh and yea I also have on myspace. Comment if you must. add me if ou haven't yet :)
lihat myspaceku
here are some of my would say random things i shot way back before i even sat in my PMR exams :]]
oh i love cats!! though i'm allergic to them sometimes but there is no harm of loving them and having them as pets.. ok i gotta admit that i do have "too" many cats
red traffic lights
“my red traffic lights” by all means.. The journey and daily routine I go through everyday in life. Sounds emo? Not really. The word “red traffic light” dah lama ade dalam kepala. Sejak habis sekolah. Maybe coz I see it everyday. i mean, kesesakan jalan raya di siang hari dan di malam bute. Red traffic lights. meanings to that “red traffic lights”. it doesn’t have to be the traffic light it self. In my little head… Red traffic can be stop, anger and rage.. I don’t know to be exact. But it has a lot of different meanings I can’t describe. But it is something I’m willing to go through and work my way as a surviver.
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