seeing paul -unexpectedly, was odd. having him hugging me and giving me a peck on the cheek, and asking me where i've been and saying he misses me (take a deep breathe and closes my eyes) just gave me flashbacks of what happened to us and what we had.guess the way i planned last saturday changed. (this is what i had on mind- go to city square, collect my check, hopingnot to bum into anybody, and get out.) and well. i bummed into paul.. GREAT!*_*now having flashbacks and remembering the memories we had together. oh darn.. darn you!. i was trying to avoid seeing you and yet, you're the one i saw. i dissapeared, yes like you said, i dissapeared. i was hurt for goodness sake. you screwed us up. and it was really hard for me to do so and it took me guts to just leave you.i dont get why so many girls out there are after you and yet, you would end up being with me. you're just one heck of a guy.just seeing you last saturday, i hate it when u give me that horrible grinding(yet effin adorable.. argh screw it teera you're not falling for him.. again!) smile. that's the reason i'm trying to avoid you. it (unfortunately) melts me (and any girl would). khjfjhjdkhg;;;
you!!
oh nonono NO WAY we're getting back together. you screwed it. no matter how cute, hot(and i mean HOT with the capital "T" and i know for the fact if we had a baby together it will be one heck of a beautiful baby :/) and has that wayyyy sexy ass than any other guys would have. nuh-uh over means overthis is the dilemmawe broke of ok (probably for the 100th time and this time for real). (oh teera, get over him, dont even think about getting back together) this is paul , we're talking about!this is how paul and i work and and basically are:we have this ON-AND-OFF thing together, it's weird. i'm not even sure "love" is really the "thing" we have here. we're SO complicated. it's like a game we play. :l
i dont get it.the weird thing is, we never do really get tired of playing this "game". though we spend every minute together before i decided to "vanish" from his sight. (i thought he would never notice but he did.. suprise suprise), paul is just a heartthrob and everygirls dream to have him involve in your love life to be specific but i dont know how i ended up with him. it's just eeeeeeeeeeerghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. complicated.
this is why i'm not dating anybody. and never end up with anyone other than him
it's almost like i'm under his spell and he's under mine
:/
