so again, i havent been active surfing the net except myspace. thinking of doing facebook again when i get all my pics together :)
class finishes late everyday starting tomorow. damn it. kalo best takpe. cam taik. :(
my love life is going great. yada ada yada yada
though last saturday the day ended bad as i got into with my now a fight with my boyfriend.. actually we had a fall out 3 times that day. but the third time was the worst. i admit it was my bad. i screwed up. oh did i cry and cried.i took the situation and handle it in a really bad way. i even ate those sleeping pills more than a normal person would take. i kindda overdosed and my heart beat beated faster than ever. i never cried because of a boy but i admit i loved him. so i did and i got angry at myself. i know i havent been telling the truth lately eventhough i promises we would trust each other. it's kindda hard. but after the incident at pangs shop last saturday and when my boyfriend actually flipped out at me. i realised he really does love and care for me. only that i was in this dilemma. im trying to change but it takes time.
so sunday, i went and have a talk with my boyfriend and he comfort me and we had a talk about trust and honesty and how we'er going to work out in the future. i really love him. i never loved anyone and we're serious about each other. i know he is for sure.
it was really hard for me to move on from the pass. i was in a really bad depression, drugs and pots. mom got me into this therapy shi but it didnt work at first then she sent me to this pshycologist whtsername.. and i guess i got ok after some time.
now that i'm involved with my boyfriend i'm happy. a girl should deserve to have her heart treated like a princess. some who knows how to take care and bring happiness to her. i'm getting it now. it seem so.
:)
